exam jitters

So its that time again, end of term and the midnight oils' burning. I see all the lights on in the village and people are fretting, I hear cries of frustration, anger and war.... Essentially its gonna be a lost battle for many of us tommorow, the unprepared souls try to make the best of the situation, by keeping awake all night, trying to make up for all the sleeping in class that they have done to date. I identify with these guys, hey I am one of them. Boy, do I regret it. I was just running through the term in my head and I dont quite know where all this time went.... what was i doing this term????? god I dont know!!! It seems like I have wiled it away, and I dont know where.

So right now i am hungry, but I dont know what to eat, what can I eat now that is available in the house???? hmmmm.......

Happy days

Today was a great day, in our leadership development class we had an exercise where we had to write something nice about other and go up to them and give them the slip. It was great fun, and in fact I realized that I actually like most people. I always thought that I was a pessimist and saw the worst in people, well what do you know, when it came to thinking about something nice about people in our class I could come up with more than 5-6 points about everyone that I liked. I also received a lot of slips myself about what people like about me, sometimes these small things are just sufficient to make ones day. I was thinking about it, I think we spend too much times thinking about the worst in people, and we need to start looking for the good in people, and I think today I have made a decision to just look at the positive side of everything...... NO MORE NEGATIVITY, especially about others....

Now about my exams which are coming up on Monday, well I think I am grossly unprepared, so I better get back to studying :)

Crossing paths

In our lives we seem to cross paths with so many interesting people who just become memories in the later years. We rarely meet again, and maybe rarely even talk again. While we knew them, however, they occupied an important part in our lives. I was just thinking of all the people that I have known over the years, some of them have saved me from myself, and some of these people were there for me when I was at my worst. Where have they gone? I hope one of these days I get to meet all them all over again, and introduce them to all other significant people in my life.

will I yet again just lose the ones that I know now? It is kinda odd to even think about it.... Sometimes I wish I go back into those yester years, and go through the same issues again, however painful they were. It is at the worst of your times that you make the best of friends. The ones that you realize are truly genuine, who you will always remember as holding a special place in your heart.

:(:(

Bored in class

Here I am sitting in Professor Sridharan's managerial accounting class, and what he says pretty much just vanishes into the uninterested dazes of the students. I think as I type this post there are about 10 people chatting on Yahoo. I guess there are still some people paying attention, with a few "intellectual" souls trying to participate. I look to this class to usually fulfill some of the latent sleep requirements. I have only slept about 4 hours yesterday, since we congregated in one of our friends' places to chat about such unimportant topics such as women at ISB.

I think I just heard a word..... "oh never minds its just "minimum balance" it will definitely be repeated about a million times during this session. we have been sitting on this same exact slide for the last 35 mins, why cant this dude work a little faster?

I have not listened to this character this whole term, in fact what I dont get is why do boring professors always stick around for the whole term but the interesting ones just end up staying half a term.... its pretty sickening.. :(

in search

In a drunken stupor, as I pour into realization
That which exists is a mere reflection,
A reality that will never be mine, a forbidden fruit
A delving into the never ending route

An unconventional addiction, a thought, a reality?
The cholera that exacerbates the eventuality
Why do I indulge this emotion of mine?
To only realize that tis just a shine

As a visitor who admires the view
And moments there are just a few
Into the night I am left with a thought,
For how nice it would be if it could be bought

What I see I cannot have, and what I can have I cannot see
For where is that one thing I look for?
I search into the night, every hour
To only find the shine but not the lure

GRIPE

Well well its one of those days agian.... a day when i feel like griping, somehow these sessions are usually the most fun to read after a week or so. So here goes

First things first, on Friday we had our stupid exams. It was a fun filled day over all, with one of the exams being the same one that was given to last years batch. Now it was de ja vu all over aqgain, with students pretty much finishing the exam in about 15 mins. The funny thing is even in this type of gross honor code violation by the professor, the students still copied from each other. Talk about mediocrity...... it is really hillarious to see people blatantly discussing the exam right in front of the proctors. Now what I fail to understand is this: we have spent 15 laks for an MBA education, we are supposed to be adults with "work experience" and we still dont fail to indulge in gross honor code violations? Why is it that we Indians dont have any sense of honor or decorom or whatever else you wanna talk about. I somehow cannot ever get myself to cheat, maybe because I find it extremely demeaning to accept that i cannot get my grades on my own, I also find it rather apalling that what was told to us on the first day by out deputy dean Mr Ajit Rangnekar, "I will throw the book at anyone who indulges in dishonorable activities" is only lip service. There has been no book, neither has there been any talk about corrective actions for what seems to be one of the most important lessons that any school should be teaching. Learning environment???? I think its all crap, this is merely a business and they are only looking to run it as one. And its rather sad that the only time we hear "learning is more important" is when we take the schools case with the authorities, and I call that passing the buck.

So now coming to my gripes, so we have some crap on Leadership due tomorrow. 2500 words of shit, leadership???? come on.... how can anyone teach that. I just read some crap in HBR which I think was just a decentry of words and a constupation of ideas. I believe all these god damn articles and journals are just that. A bunch of plagarized shit from epics such as mahabharatha or bible or whatever else. No originality of thought or ideas, and I am supposed to take this "level 5 leadership" thing seriously?? and even go as far as writing a 2500 word essay, talk about punishment. Anyhow I guess I am gonna stop at this, maye I will fill in more after dinner......

Friends

I have been wondering for the past week why one of my closest friends on campus is avoiding me these days. After talking to her, just realised that she is worried what people might think if they see us together. It is odd isnt it, that at this age we still need society's approval to be friends? the rumor mill has aparently already started, and it seems that people on campus dont have any thing better to do that talk about others. With an average of 5 years work ex why do we still act like middle school kids? It seems that we just come back to college and immediately our moronic personalities starts to show its face. How does it matter what our relationship might be? is it anyone's business?

Saying what I just did, I do believe that I too at times have acted kinda childish here on campus, it seems that the college experience has just brought out every juvenile idea that I have had to the fore. It seems that at 27 I still am as juvenile as I was when i started college at the age of 18.

Maybe I will write about my college years next :)

As I sit here and think through this issue, I really do hope she remains the freind she has been.

Average flow time

Exams are coming up on Friday, operations and corporate finance. I feel like I am not prepared at all, I have been slacking this term, and motivation is at an all time low. As I write this, there are a couple more chapters to read in operations and though I have finished my first read of CF I dont think I have a good grasp.

As I was reading Operations I realised that my flow time has significantly decreased (well thats basically the time required for me to finish studying). I inevitably find other things to do, talk on the phone, eat a cake, drink? all non-value adding activities which slow down my effective flow rate. I was sitting in the library and all I could think of is who to call next. What the fuck is wrong? I dont fucking know.

NEED TO GET BACK TO STUDYING!!!!

a run through the day

8AM : About ready for class, We have entreprenuership, operations management and managerial accounting (in that order) today. Love the first two and hate the last one. In fact yesterday I pretty much slept through the whole MA class. That only means that I need to study that much harder in that subject to crack it. Will write more as the day progresses

8:30 - 10:30 Entreprenuership---- This prof is too cool, we learnt about boot strapping (ie a way for a startup to run without funds) if i remember right this is what he said
"dont buy if you can rent, dont rent if you can beg, dont beg if you can get it for free, dont get it for free if you can get paid to take it" I think thats just an awesome way to run any business. We need to continously make sure that we arent paying for unncessary things. In class today we went through 2 cases, walden paddlers and kate spade, both were amzing analysis of how to run a new company.

10:30- 11 Break - During the break we just chilled

11-1 - Operations management - Todays class was amazing we talked about how to analyse a process and find the bottlenecks in the process. We need to measure throughput in terms of profit to the bottom line and not in terms of units produced. TO prove this point we went through 2 cases national cranberry and bariatric...

2:30-4:30- managerial accounting - What a crap course I dont even remember what was taught, cause I believe I was sleeping.

5-6 ----- a lesson on bidding for courses.....


Since then I have been chillin'

Long time no see

The last month has been extremely hectic, with a drive to perform well in my courses I spent pretty much most of my time studying. Only to realise that "to B or not to B is the only question since A is just not under anyones control, but the TAs" It almost seems junenile to just concentrate on grades at my age, but the Indian in me will never let go of that aspect.So what else have I done in the last one month? well I have shut myself out of all the nonsense that was around here on campus.

Thank god for a very close friend who has been my only escape into the social world. It seems almost useless to talk to anyone else, imaturity and stupidity is so rampant here that its just better not to be a part of it.The second term ended about 2 weeks back, I did have some fun during the term break hanging out with some really cool souls :) drinking and doing things which I rather leave for imagination :) Went out wining and dining in hyderabad, and found that hyderabad is pretty much like bangalore.With the new term starting I have been pretty unenthused, too much reading to do and I have done any.

I just wanna chill I think, I do not want to study!!! :(Well with my b-day approaching, I am gonna be another year older, and farther away from the childhood that I once enjoyed. OH crap