hmm...

Well I just received an email from ohio state, I prayed for about a minute before opening it, but guess what? it was just a mail asking me if I have any questions about the Ohio State program... sucks big time.....

two more days to go

Well, I presume I will know about Ohio state on tuesday, as I am supposed to about it by the 28, however US is about 10 hours behind us, so I will only hear about it on Tuesday. ISB second round admits come out tomorrow, and I would have to wait another week to two weeks to learn about my fate at ISB. This wait is quite difficult, as I have already given in my resignation, and I am headed to my parents place in about 2 weeks.... I am not sure what to do, as I am thinking about all the possible options that I have at the moment... oh well :(

Doubt

So a sense of doubt sinks in..... Is an MBA really important, I actually earn more than the average at any Indian business school. Being that I lived in the US for close to 7 years, I know for a fact that I could earn more than the averages at most schools in the US too. THEN WHY??? Why do I wanna put myself through another 2 years of self-doubt? I had my dose of self doubt in the US doing my bachelors? Why again?

I think I am going through these thoughts because I have nothing else to do other than wait wait and wait more. at least for another week to hear back from the first school. But its a good question none the less, and I had an answer, but I seem to not remember what it is. So let me try to re formulate a good answer.

I feel stifled presently, I do not have the same motivation that I once had, and I feel like my career has kinda stagnated. What else could I do after my present job? Maybe a technical manager? But then what? Yeah I would make tons of money, but I feel I wont be complete without an MBA. of course this is apart from the "dowry points" (kidding) that I would get once I am ready for marriage. SO in a bulleted fashion

-unsatisfied with the current job
-think I am cut out for better things
-want to maybe do marketing or business strategy
-and finally DOWRY points..... Or rather need something to compensate for my receding hairline :)

SO I shall continue to wait.......

wait another day

Well its a monday, and apart from the boring day at work, no emails from any university. Hope to get a mail from ohio state this week. Its kinda odd that I check my email about 100 times a day, wondering if the mails might have gone to my junk mail, but no mails in the junk folder either. WHat are these schools doing, this torture is unbearable :(

This wait is killing me

these few weeks have been quite trying.... I have been waiting to hear from schools for the last 2 months.

It was really exciting while I was going through the application process writing the GMAT then based on the score deciding upon the schools to apply, then going through the application requirements and then revisiting the decision on the shortlisted schools finally editing reediting and then proof-reading. Then the dreaded submission, with the fear that I might have missed a comma or a period, or spelt some obscure word wrong.

Then then wait began, the slow process of "doubt-building" with every passing day. Am I I good enough? did I make a mistake? I shoudl ahve applied to some sure shots atleast, will I get into these schools? should I start looknig for a new job? my GOD this process has taken a toll...

Initially I was excited about the ISB waitlist since I thought it was a blessing in disquise, since if I had made ti I would have had to shell out 1 lakh on the 31st of jan before I heard back from any of the US schools. Now I feel it would have been better off if I had received an admit, since this uncertainty is killing me.

I have been interviewed by Ohio state and I should get the decision by this week.... Hopefully its an admit, if not the uncertainty will continue.

GOd damn it why isnt CMU calling me??? when will I get the interview call?

Just sent out the Cornell Application this weekend, being that its the 3rd round, I am not sure what to expect.

Berkeley --- THis is a long shot, not expecting much, but woulnt it be nice if I get in?

USC -- well havent heard anythgin from them, hope to hear from them soon..

looking back at the post looks liek I have ADD(attention deficit disorder) I jumped into so many topics, no clear idea. Well I guess it explains my present state of mind....

WHAT THE FU*K!!!!!!!