vacuum

Couple weeks ago a couple students from ISB won a paper writing competition, ever since the newest fad on campus is “TAKE PART IN ALL THE COMPETITIONS YOU CAN THINK OF”.  SO going with the flow, I too have succumbed to the mass movement.  SAD but TRUE!  SO this vacation I have been working on a few papers and case competitions with a few of my friends.  What I realized is that my learning is 10 fold when it comes to researching for papers and competitions.  I wish I had discovered this earlier(.  

So this term break I have introspected quite a bit and have really figured out a lot about myself as well as the environment around me.  I wrote a lot (though not for public medium) and it has helped me quite a bit.  Sometimes I think we just have to give ourselves some time to just think about everything that’s happening, including things we think we have control over.  I have done exactly that, and it has helped quite a bit.  

Introspective

I am half an MBA now; we just got done with are exams today, and what an exam that was (Investment Analysis). I studied just about 6-7 hours for it, and need less to say it was not sufficient. This was one of those beauties which actually tested your understanding of the subject. The 4 cheat sheets that we took along to aid us in our quest to conquer was just not enough, I mean even that would be an understatement. It was a true beauty. I wish I had put in my study time for this; I really enjoyed solving the paper, even though I probably did not do to well. It would have been nice if I had put in a good 10 days to study for the test. Anyway retrospection is of no use now. The faces of fellow students were wrought with surprise and fear, until they found that everyone had done badly. Thank god for small mercies, Relative Grading ki Jai ho.

So now we start our 10 day break. I intend to do a lot of introspection these 10 days. I need to figure out a lot of things, and I need to get my act together. I have been in a little bit of a soup lately, not knowing what and where things are going. It almost seems like I am making a lot of mistakes that I made earlier…… I really do need to put a stop to this. So the action plan is to spend time with myself a lot, I am going to try to figure out whats going on in that teeny tiny brain of mine which hasn’t been functioning too well lately. Control has been lost, and I need to gain it back.

exam blues

Sitting here I can only wonder what tomorrow may bring.  That’s right its exam blues again.  And I can’t believe that I am this close to being half an MBA.  I am however not at all prepared for the shit tomorrow.  So as with every exam day the spams were let loose today, GOD people just go nuts at ISB with spams. MORE TOMORROW

I wish

I have always felt I would change nothing about my past, because it’s what made me what I am today, and the past has taught me a lot.  I always believed that my past (good and bad) has made me a much stronger person, a person who can withstand the test of time.  Probably everyone has felt like they wanted to change something from the past, but I never had that urge, I never for once felt like changing anything.  Today for the first time I want to be someone else, I don’t know who exactly I somehow feel like just changing what I am completely and just wish I could be a completely different person.  Wish I was in a different time, a different place, seen things before they became what they are.  I WISH I WISH I WISH…….