Our PPTs

Our PPTs (pre placement talks) have started now.  Companies come on campus and give us their pitches, its quite hilarious to see some of the students here rush in for the “high ticket” companies (ie the mckinseys of the world).  As if everyone on campus is going to get into these firms.  And then you have those “rare souls” who think that the guys who come on campus are going to remember them or something when they come here for recruitment, so they start with the familiar “I am “first name Last name” and I have a question.  It is damn funny, my god do these people really think that they would stand out amongst 150 students? The best are the Mckinsey and BCG talks, so these companies are actually going to hire only 3-4 people each and there were literally 200 students at these talks.  Today was microsoft’s turn so we got the shpeal of “passion, integrity, honesty” and how Microsoft values these words.  SO first of all integrity and Microsoft???? That itself is quite hilarious, and then to think that every company thinks that this is one of their unique selling points, so do these companies actually think that there will be companies out these who say “we believe in dishonesty”??? come on…… (

The pain

I am surrounded by darkness, and I don’t know which way I need to turn.  I have been trying to find the light that does not exist.  In the absence of sanity only thing that prevails is stupidity, and that’s what has hit me.  What am I doing to myself, and the person I care the most about?  I sometimes wonder where did all those days go when everything was a joke? Why can’t I live that anymore?  I have been in the dumps all day, actually last couple of days when I don’t know what’s happening to me, I feel lost and looking for a Shepard to lead me into the light. When I look into my future I see a lot of pain, more for people I care about than me.  What am I doing? Where is all this headed? I just want to go back to those Pittsburgh days when everything was just a joke and nothing really existed.  Today I am finally part of this world and I don’t want to be, I really don’t want to be a part of this stupid place.  

I feel like my world is shrinking and I am in it, waiting to be crushed…….. I wish I had the will power to face this challenge… I pray I had the will power to face this…

a dillemma

Well two thoughts today, one of pure bliss and one of extreme sadness and anger.  I can’t really make out which one prevails right now.  I have overall been really happy today, with yesterday being the most amazing day at ISB.  Wish everyday was like that, and today has just been awesome because of yesterdays “hangover” if you may.  Had a ball at the waterfront.  Anyway but today I am not sure how I should look at it, I have this weird feeling that I have been doing something wrong for the longest time.  I actually get this feeling quite a bit, and then I make a resolution that I will never do it again, but then it again starts.  What exactly is this? Am I nuts or what?

I guess I am not as nice as I think I am : (